So I currently live in my mothers basement. Yes let it sink in. I live a young adults nightmare. I'm lucky enough that rent isn't an issue and there's slightly more privacy but I do still have to deal with my mother and sisters on a daily basis.
I'm the first of three girls. Life was and still is a constant bicker. Me and the middle child of my household have a hate/hate relationship. I honestly have grown to seriously dislike my sister. I don't hate her and would never let someone hurt her, but I can't possibly see us being friends. Two days ago things got bad and we ended up having a physical fight.
A lot came out into the open and I realize between my prejudices of her and her violent and controlling nature we just can't be close. I truly believe my sister feels the need to always be in control, and I've been told she in constant competition with me. I don't even know what her goal is. I just know its not mine. She's more stress than I ever want to deal with in my current and future life. Telle est la vie et vous mourrez!
My goal is TO BE HAPPY. I want to make my decisions and not regret or think back on a thing. I want to embody the YOLO (You Only Live Once) life style according to what I want. I've had a very bad habit of living for my family and their wishes (I am of Haitian descent). I'm over it. I'm done being stifled.
So starting today I'm tearing away from what I've always known. I'm worried anxious, and incredibly excited. Wish me Luck!!
Till next time ! ^_^
